After the Strike on Caracas: A Veteran’s Perspective on Consequence

The United States has hit Caracas some hours ago. It’s all over the news which, of course, is never truly informative after the first 24 hours and sometimes as long as 72 hours. I simply saw it as inevitable, and far enough away that it shouldn’t blow my windows in.

I looked out at the moon last night before I slept and thought, “That moon would be a great operations moon.” This morning, over a cup of coffee as I sat outside, I found out through international media channels. I sit about 384 miles away from there. That’s not very far away at all if you’ve lived on a continent and drove on it.

The local press will of course be teaming with reports on it largely echoed by the international media I keep track of. The local populace has been quite vocal for or against. It’s been coming for a while, and it didn’t surprise me.

So far, I’m right.

I’m sure people died. I’m sure there was collateral damage, hopefully at least minimized. I’m sure that there will be speculation about wild speculation as the locally uninformed go on wildly tangential narratives. Roll the die.

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Firearm Policy, Crime, and the Unspoken Realities in Trinidad and Tobago

A man at a desk staring at a matrix with the Trinidad and Tobago flag in the background, transparent.

In Trinidad and Tobago, there is much discussion about crime because… well, there’s been a lot of crime, so much so that there’s a Wikipedia page on crime in Trinidad and Tobago. Every administration blames the last administration, playing checkers for getting elected, but the crime has risen through all involved political parties running things over the past 3 decades.

The latest stab – or shot – at crime seems to be giving everyone gun licenses. On the surface, it gives a lot of people a sense of security to be able to get something only criminals seem to have. Right after an election, any criticism of the present government is seen as ‘anti-UNC’ – the political party that won was UNC. Just as any criticism of the past administration was seen as ‘anti-PNM’.

It’s a tired way of shutting down valid conversations. I have seen it in every country I’ve lived in or visited. Group-think offers comfort, and that comfort rivals religion in its power.

I do not care for politics. Both major parties are interchangeable to me. I criticize what I know in the hope that something useful can grow through the cracks in the political concrete.

My Criticism Of Stand Your Ground Laws and Firearm User License Propagation.

Really, I don’t have much criticism of these ideas. I myself applied for a weapon more than once in Trinidad and Tobago some decades ago, where I was told behind closed doors who to bribe and who I would have to buy the gun from. Oddly, the present political party in charge then is the same party.

I do not have much issue with the idea of responsible gun ownership. I myself applied for a firearm license in Trinidad and Tobago more than once, decades ago. I was told who to bribe and who I would need to buy the weapon from.

My applications were “lost.”

I got the bureaucratic shuffle that corruption feeds on.

The thing about it is that I have owned guns in the United States for decades. I am a U.S. Navy veteran and having worked with the United States Marine Corps as their Corpsman, I got not only to train further with weapons but also further in dealing with the wounds. In essence, I know what I’m talking about.

The criticism is here: with more firearms licenses comes more guns to civilians. Training requirements aren’t very high, and the understanding of the responsibility of having a weapon is not seemingly making the rounds as much as the political grandstanding.

My Criticism of Stand Your Ground Laws and Firearm License Expansion

Legal access to guns means new risks. People who did not have firearms before could now shoot themselves or someone else by accident.

It might not happen often. It might happen frequently. But it will happen.
That risk depends entirely on how good the training is.

No one is talking about that. They should be.

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“I Feel Fine”, he will say to the cardiologist.

I am going to see a cardiologist today, and I’ve decided my opening statement will be this:

“I feel fine.”

Granted, I did have that heart attack recently, and the outcome of that story after an angiogram was that the doctors said I need a triple bypass. With my background, I was able to review things to an extent, but I’m not a doctor. I’m not a cardiologist. What I am, probably most importantly right now, is me.

So, to catch you up, I had the heart attack, spent 5 days in Port of Spain General/St. James medical, and left against medical advice to have an angiogram the same week instead of when they could schedule one and was told I needed the triple bypass.

So I started dealing with the bureaucracy and… well, I still am. I opted to see my psychologist about a month ago because… I was beginning to consider not doing the surgery because the bureaucracy inertia was stunning. In fact, she recommended the cardiologist I’m seeing today.

And if you’ve looked at the way the world is going, why would I want to stick around? I don’t see much incentive. Have my leg cut open for a blood vessel to be harvested, my chest cracked open with my ribs flexed, have my heart re-plumbed with the self-donated blood vessel and stapled up, wheeled out back onto the production floor of humanity? So I can try to figure out how to pay the bills just a little longer every day?

I expressed this to my psychologist. She seems to think I’m sane. Stunned, right? Yeah. I’m not suicidal, it’s not that I want to die but I’m not afraid of death. Life is what worries me, particularly when I don’t really have a plan.

Is the immediate solution the best long term solution?

And I feel pretty fine. On this previous Friday, the electricity where I live was suspect1, so I ended up wandering around rather than baking in my home. My almost-smart watch, which I might label a ‘useful watch’ rather than a ‘smart watch’, counted 10,000+ steps that day, where I’d been around 6,000 steps a day prior. Seeing that, I decided to become more active and see if I had any issues.

Averaging roughly 6,000-8,000 steps since then, I still don’t feel like I need surgery. But to be fair, I have been diligently taking my medications with few mistakes, and I haven’t been going to exercise. This is just my regular activity, with spikes and lulls.

I’ve seen the results of the angiogram. It seems scary, but I’m not scared. I actually do feel fine.

I do have a high threshold for pain which could be masking things, so I’m in the odd position of ‘flying by instruments’ when the instruments and the view from the cockpit aren’t lining up for me.

Of course, I expect the doctor will want to do tests. He’ll want bloodwork. An ECG. I expect all of that.

Meanwhile, I got the next ‘last document’ I need to go to get in another line related to the surgery, which is not as important as it was immediately after the heart attack, at least to me. I joked that it may be the strategy of the health system in Trinidad and Tobago that I die before I get the surgery, thus helping with a budget somewhere.

In the end, in these systems, we individuals are not that important. And there’s been regime change, too, so who knows what will happen. The different political parties and their followers have to deal with the different politics of the civil servants, and somewhere in the head of that needle I have to take care of myself.

So, off I go. And oddly, I feel fine.

  1. Phase issue. Rather than destroy electrical appliances, I turned everything off. ↩︎

Manipulation In The Age of AI – And How We Got Here.

We understand things better when we can interact with them and see an effect. A light switch, as an example, is a perfectly good example.

If the light is off, we can assume that the light switch position is in the off position. Lack of electricity makes this flawed, so we look around and see if other things that require electricity are also on.

If the light is on, we can assume the light switch is in the on position.

Simple. Even if we can’t see, we have a 50% chance of getting this right.

It gets more complicated when we don’t have an immediate effect on something, or can’t have an effect at all. As I wrote about before, we have a lot of stuff that is used every day where the users don’t understand how it works. This is sometimes a problem. Are nuclear reactors safe? Will planting more trees in your yard impact air quality in a significant way?

This is where we end up trusting things. And sometimes, these things require skepticism. The world being flat deserves as much skepticism as it being round, but there’s evidence all around that the world is indeed round. There is little evidence that the world is flat. Why do people still believe the earth is flat?

Shared Reality Evolves.

As a child, we learn by experimentation with things around us. As we grow older, we lean on information and trusted sources more – like teachers and books – to tell us things that are true. My generation was the last before the Internet, and so whatever information we got was peer reviewed, passed the muster of publishers, etc. There were many hoops that had to be jumped through before something went out into the wild.

Yet if we read the same books, magazines, saw the same television shows, we had this shared reality that we had, to an extent, agreed upon, and to another extent in some ways, was forced on us.

The news was about reporting facts. Everyone who had access to the news had access to the same facts, and they could come to their own conclusions, though to say that there wasn’t bias then would be dishonest. It just happened slower, and because it happened slower, more skepticism would come into play so that faking stuff was harder to do.

Enter The Internet

It followed that the early adopters (I was one) were akin to the first car owners because we understood the basics of how things worked. If we wanted a faster connection, we figured out what was slowing our connections and we did it largely without search engines – and then search engines made it easier. Websites with good information were valued, websites with bad information were ignored.

Traditional media increasingly found that the Internet business model was based on advertising, and it didn’t translate as well to the traditional methods of advertising. To stay competitive, some news became opinions and began to spin toward getting advertisers to click on websites. The Internet was full of free information, and they had to compete.

Over a few decades, the Internet became more pervasive, and the move toward mobile phones – which are not used mainly as phones anymore – brought information to us immediately. The advertisers and marketers found that next to certain content, people were more likely to be interested in certain advertising so they started tracking that. They started tracking us and they stored all this information.

Enter Social Media

Soon enough, social media came into being and suddenly you could target and even microtarget based on what people wanted. When people give up their information freely online, and you can take that information and connect it to other things, you can target people based on clusters of things that they pay attention to.

Sure, you could just choose a political spectrum – but you could add religious beliefs, gender/identity, geography, etc, and tweak what people see based on a group they created from actual interactions on the Internet. Sound like science fiction? It’s not.

Instead of a shared reality on one axis, you could target people on multiple axes.

Cambridge Analytica

Enter the Facebook-Cambridge Analytica Data Scandal:

Cambridge Analytica came up with ideas for how to best sway users’ opinions, testing them out by targeting different groups of people on Facebook. It also analyzed Facebook profiles for patterns to build an algorithm to predict how to best target users.

“Cambridge Analytica needed to infect only a narrow sliver of the population, and then it could watch the narrative spread,” Wylie wrote.

Based on this data, Cambridge Analytica chose to target users that were  “more prone to impulsive anger or conspiratorial thinking than average citizens.” It used various methods, such as Facebook group posts, ads, sharing articles to provoke or even creating fake Facebook pages like “I Love My Country” to provoke these users.

The Cambridge Analytica whistleblower explains how the firm used Facebook data to sway elections“, Rosalie Chan, Business Insider (Archived) October 6th, 2019

This had drawn my attention because it impacted the two countries I am linked to; the United States and Trinidad and Tobago. It is known to have impacted the Ted Cruz Campaign (2016), the Donald Trump Presidential Campaign (2016), and interfering in the Trinidad and Tobago Elections (2010).

The timeline of all of that, things were figured out years after the damage had already been done.

The Shared Realities By Algorithm

When you can splinter groups and feed them slightly different or even completely different information, you can impact outcomes, such as elections. In the U.S., you can see it with television channel news biases – Fox news was the first to be noted. When the average attention span of people is now 47 seconds, things like Twitter and Facebook (Technosocial dominant) can make this granularity more and more fine.

Don’t you know at least one person who believe some pretty whacky stuff? Follow them on social media, I guarantee you you’ll see where it’s coming from. And it gets worse now because since AI has become more persuasive than the majority of people and critical thinking has not kept pace.

When you like or share something on social media, ask yourself whether someone has a laser pointer and just adding a red dot to your life.

The Age of Generative AI And Splintered Shared Realities

An AI attached to the works of humans

Recently, people have been worrying about AI in elections and primarily focusing on deepfakes. Yet deepfakes are very niche and haven’t been that successful. This is probably also because it has been the focus, and therefore people are skeptical.

The generative AI we see, large language models (LLMs) were trained largely on Internet content, and what is Internet content largely? You can’t seem to view a web page without it? Advertising. Selling people stuff that they don’t want or need. Persuasively.

And what do sociotechnical dominant social media entities do? Why, they train their AIs on the data available, of course. Wouldn’t you? Of course you would. To imagine that they would never use your information to train an AI requires more imagination than the Muppets on Sesame Street could muster.

Remember when I wrote that AI is more persuasive? Imagine prompting an AI on what sort of messaging would be good for a specific microtarget. Imagine asking it how to persuade people to believe it.

And imagine in a society of averages that the majority of people will be persuaded about it. What is democracy? People forget that it’s about informed conversations and they go straight to the voting because they think that is the measure of a democracy. It’s a measure, and the health of that measure reflects the health of the discussion preceding the vote.

AI can be used – and I’d argue has been used – successfully in this way, much akin to the story of David and Goliath, where David used technology as a magnifier. A slingshot effect. Accurate when done right, multiplying the force and decreasing the striking surface area.

How To Move Beyond It?

Well, first, you have to understand it. You also have to be skeptical about why you’re seeing the content that you do, especially when you agree with it. You also have to understand that, much like drunk driving, you don’t have to be drinking to be a victim.

Next, you have to understand the context other people live in – their shared reality and their reality.

Probably more importantly, is not calling people names because they disagree with you. Calling someone racist or stupid is a recipe for them to stop listening to you.

Where people – including you – can manipulated by what is shown in your feeds by dividing, find the common ground. The things that connect. Don’t let entities divide us. We do that well enough by ourselves without suiting their purposes.

The future should be about what we agree on, our common shared identities, where we can appreciate the nuances of difference. And we can build.

Trinidad and Tobago Changes Regimes (2025)

A map view of the 2025 election results in Trinidad and Tobago, where the UNC won without question.

Well, elections in Trinidad and Tobago are over, and it’s time for everyone’s favorite game, regime change. The United National Congress (UNC) ousted the incumbent People’s National Movement (PNM). The UNC was decidedly weak in opposition, yet the results of the election are without question.

Over the next months, there will be replacements, cancellations, as the individuals that backed the UNC are given their rewards. That wouldn’t be a problem except there is a definite historical bias of both parties to exclude merit in their considerations, akin to what we see in the United States now with the Trump administration.

Where I live, there’s a majority of PNM supporters and party members, so I expect I’ll hear about this though I don’t really care. The UNC and PNM have not impressed me, but the UNC definitely impressed the majority and now they have to produce in a way that pleases vox populi.

I’ve had my dances with politicians from all parties, and I’m just waiting to see what happens at this point.

The last time the UNC lead, the government took about 7.8 acres of land that they still haven’t paid for while they paid others. The last time the UNC lead, the political leader and some other politicians allegedly stood on my land and said that the land had no deed – but a few years later, they approached me to help NGOs. When I pointed out what was alleged, I was told, “dat is small ting”. At the same meeting, they tried to get me to help with the maps, and as someone who advocates privacy, I simply could not do that because I don’t trust political parties and their backers to use the information appropriately. I stand by that.

Then there was the one laptop per child that they tried, which they started off just as reports were coming in that it was a failure for various reasons. That did not stop them.

And the PNM government, for the most part, just didn’t seem to find their way. I spoke with some of the politicians over the years, and they were about the same as the UNC politicians with a different allegiance.

Will the change be enough? I’m waiting to see, but I’m not hopeful with the same political leader of the UNC running things. Will foreign exchange become more easily had? Will issues with electricity and water be addressed? Will Trinidad and Tobago diversify the economy, and will they be random stabs at it or will there be something that works? Will there be constitutional reform?

I have no idea.

So let’s see what the new administration does. Winning an election means you convinced people you will do the subjectively right things. Staying in power is pretty much the same.

Running a country, on the other hand, has been an elusive goal of government in Trinidad and Tobago.

Having watched both parties for a few decades, you’ll excuse me if I’m comfortably numb.

Afterword and Observations: An Overloaded System

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Aftercare

I did get that angiogram at the Advanced Cardiac Institute. It cost less than I expected and more than I wanted, but it got done that very same week I walked out of the public health system.

They asked me to shave my groin should they be unable to use my wrist.

That was intimidating, particularly still having blood thinners working their magic. There’s no real way I could have bled out from a razor nick, but the idea of having my body found in the bathroom with a razor against my groin in a pool of blood did stick in my mind throughout the process. I managed no bleeding, and I never want to have to do that again, thank you very much.

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Dancing Beyond The Medical System

Awakenings

I awoke the next morning in St. James Medical Complex, Internal Medicine a little more refreshed than before as I soaked in the routine, from making the walk to brush my teeth and shower to having my vital signs taken and being given my medications.

When I first came into St. James Complex, I was told that they hadn’t ‘gotten my medications yet’ and that the nurses had managed to get them together. Today, they didn’t say that. It’s a strange thing to notice, but I was distracted by the sounds of the birds outside.

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Reprieve: St. James Medical Complex, Internal Medicine

Inverted anatomical image of a heart in crisis, done in pastels.

Settling In

The new space to me, St. James Internal Medicine, was much more comfortable than Port of Spain General’s Obervation Ward, which in turn was more comfortable than Casualty.

There were more patients. I noted a few that were restrained, hinting at altered levels of consciousness. One gentleman, who saw me walking around when I first arrived, motioned me over so I went to say hi.

Having my attention, he motioned against a restraint while looking at it – the universal way of saying, “Untie me!”. I explained to him if I did that I would be tied down myself, and that wouldn’t do either of us any good. He nodded his understanding and smiled conspiratorially.

I’m glad we cleared that up.

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An Overloaded System: From Observation to Internal Medicine in Another Location

An anatomical heart done in ink, vignetted by black ink with diagonal lines demonstrating stress.

Day 3

Waking up after my a decent night’s rest – thanks to that Venezuelan nurse and her sacrifice of the fan – I felt good. The lights were on and had probably just been turned on. The nurse was making rounds. I’d heard the tell-tale sound of the velcro of a blood pressure cuff. I sat on the edge of the bed and waited – she only had 3 more patients to get to me.

She was also distributing medications in those small paper cups that serve no other purpose.

She got to me and my blood pressure was down. I’d ‘scored’ much better than the previous days, and my blood pressure had dipped lower the day before but today was right about where a 20 year old’s blood pressure should be. It was 127/80.

I wasn’t feeling 20 years old. In the moment, I couldn’t pin down an age I felt. I didn’t even care about age. If you ask me when I’m not expecting it, I have to subtract the present year from my birth year if I want to be accurate otherwise I just guess. Birthdays made no sense to me. Counting revolutions I’ve been on the planet seemed pretty small considering the planet revolves before and after us.

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An Overloaded System – Port of Spain General Hospital (Observation, Day One)

Day One, Observation, Day Two in Hospital

The night prior, I’d gotten to know a few of the people on the ward. One had part of his foot removed because of diabetes, another was there because of a kidney issue which he said was related to Covid-19, and he was here for dialysis and tests. He had been shuffled more than a pack of cards at a local bar, as he explained it.

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