There have been things I have been avoiding thinking about for some time because the need isn’t immediate, the world has been pretty unpredictable, and there doesn’t seem to be a great place to be anywhere on the planet.

If it’s not one thing, it’s another.

This past week I withdrew and thought about the things I had been avoiding. I had hoped some years ago that if I pushed that last bit I pushed, I could stop pushing. I could be static instead of dynamic. In that time, I focused on myself. I focused on some health issues, which are in check.

My sanity has been established, and as a psychologist put it, ‘despite the things I have been through’. So there’s that.

The world, though, has been disturbing my revery. I needed to think about the future. I needed to think about where I should be and what I should be doing.

I needed to wake up.

It seems to me that the world has become less and less certain. We have artificial intelligence, we have some pretty weird stuff with economies, maybe even because of algorithmic trading, and we have people all scraping by and trying to find a future out of the past of others.

I don’t know what exactly is coming next, but it’s time to make sure all the tools at my disposal are at the ready for whatever comes next.

Writing is something I enjoy, so I will keep doing that. Technology is something I have a stronger familiarity with than most. These past years, though, have had me also growing well beyond those things, and it’s time to see where that means my future is.

Honestly, it’s a little fun waking up. I didn’t even realize I was asleep until the nightmare became unrelenting.