When The Levee Breaks.

Having written a paragraph I’m particularly proud of, I got lost in finding something to so that I could keep pace. I reached for one of my favorites, “When The Levee Breaks” done by Led Zeppelin.

Like most things I like, it has a history that I’ve drilled down into. This song just drives through emotion, plodding through the mud with purpose, with a steady rhythm regardless of what comes. It’s grounding. You’re in the ‘suck’, but you keep moving at a very primal level.

The history goes back to 1927.

The Great Mississippi flood of 1927 has a pretty thorough Wikipedia page. It was the most destructive river flood in the United States. Imagine 27,000 square miles in water up to 30 feet in depth. 500 dead, 630,000 people affected. Population density was lower then.

It’s a song born of, “well this sucks, but I’ll make it through”.

The Lost Art of Browsing.

It disturbs me a little that there are people out there right now that have never physically browsed books, or music.

I would spend a lot of time in particular wandering bookstores, looking for things to read. Harold Bloom’s quote comes to mind; “We read, frequently if not unknowingly, in search of a mind more original than our own.”

In the 1980s, I would frequent a bookstore in Trinidad – Manhin’s – on High Street in San Fernando, checking to see if the new Byte magazine, Compute! magazine, etc, would show up and when I did, I invariably picked up other books. It was never time wasted and, even if I didn’t buy some of the books, browsing them made me aware of other aspects of the world. Neil deGrasse Tyson pitches it to businesses as not making as much money if people cannot browse, but the benefit for the consumer is not that businesses can make more money but that consumers can get things that they want or need.

Thrift stores were a special kind of fun for me, before Walmart took over the United States, because you could find some really good stuff in them – including books, books that were cherished by someone, books that were kept on a bookshelf over years and sometimes decades because to them, there was something important in that book that they wanted to be able to revisit.

That seems lost now. In fact, bookstores have become more like Amazon with ordering specific books to sell based on what is popular when I’ve found some of the most interesting books aren’t popular. It used to be that you would walk into a bookstore, the smell of paper and ink permeating the place- some that traded in used novels smelled of old newsprint paper – and you got a feeling that you might find something. A good book found was like an archaeological find in an excavation.

Largely, we’ve lost that. Algorithms have taken away the discovery of our ‘B-Sides’, and feeding artificial intelligences on our habits, likes and dislikes, leaving our lives to be victimized by our options not just in politics but in everything. Everything is marketed, everything about our habits of looking are tracked and recorded, implicitly telling us we should be what we were instead of what we could become.

The Soundtrack of Life.

As far back as I can remember, I remember music. First, The Entertainer – one of my first memories. Growing up with long rides on the highways of the United States, the 8 track would carry me through the 1970s and even into the 1980s, where old 8 track cartridges persisted longer than the 8 track player in the vehicles and – yes – the portable 8 track player.

Recently I’ve been watching a few people doing reels on Facebook that point out where particular songs borrow from previous songs – sometimes just a small composition, sometimes the majority of the song.

When, in the 1980s, people were re-making songs from the 1960s, I thought it was great. My father, on the other hand, did not. I did not understand. He said it was different when you’d lived through the times of those songs.

I understand. In fact, I imagine he could have gone on to say that it’s sad that we were borrowing their songs, that we should have songs of our own. Yet we did. The 1980s was pretty rich musically, with original artists creating not just pop music, but lyrical music, music that had meaning – and music that had no meaning at all.

Of course, he didn’t really see that. In the same way, I don’t see it in the generations that have followed too much. When I listen to some Otis Redding…

Oh, you thought Aretha did it first? Her version is awesome too.

It’s hard to compare that to anyone now. The recordings were different, but the voices were so much better than the stuff I hear on the radio nowadays. From that ‘before me’ era, there’s so many artists that just moved people across a much less tightly bound network as music crept across the landscape of the world through radio waves.

And that’s just the Motown stuff. Factor in bands like Led Zeppelin, Creedence Clearwater Revival… the folk singers like Jim Croce…

My era may not have been the greatest for music, but I think the 1980s and early 1990s were the last coughs of a victim of a hostile takeover as it increasingly became about what sells instead of what is good. We went from the local steakhouse, the 1980s might have been Outback, and from there it seems like it’s McDonalds most of the time with everyone getting toys with their Happy Meals.

It’s an opinion. It may not even be a good one. There are artists, I’m sure, that have great lyrics, great voices, great music… but I don’t really hear them on the radio. But in my time, I heard the songs of rebellion like Bob Dylan’s Hurricane, which I won’t insert in here because someone might get offended – so here’s a link to Polo reacting to Bob Dylan’s ‘Hurricane’.

There were songs of protest, of criticism, of… of life.

And I don’t know that we have that anymore. I just hear corporate stuff getting piped into the headphones of kids with no soul. And without soul feeding souls, we worry about technology taking over humanity when maybe we’ve already been losing it.

Decorating A Piece of Time

Frank ZappaSticking this here because I may be referring to it multiple times, and the full quote is a bit wordy.

In an interview in 1984, Frank Zappa responded to a question in a way that fits all of this very well:

“Well, I’m specialized. What I do on a guitar has very little to do with what other people do on a guitar. Most of the other guitar solos that you hear performed on stage have been practiced over and over and over again. they go out there and they play the same one every night and it’s really, just, spotless.

My theory is this – I have a basic mechanical knowledge of the operation of the instrument and I got an imagination. and when the time comes up in the song to play a solo, it’s me against the laws of nature. I don’t know what I’m going to play, I don’t know what I’m going to do, I know roughly how long I have to do it, and it’s a game where you have a piece of time and you get to decorate it and, depending on how intuitive the rhythm section is that’s backing you up, you can do things that are literally impossible to imagine – sitting here – but you can see them performed before your very eyes in a live performance situation…”

We are all just decorating time. Some do the same things over and over – some don’t.

Refining a Soundtrack Of Whispers

Whisper Fiercely
Original image by Henry Woods, 1894, via OldBookIllustrations.com.

I’ve been delinquent a while as I have pretended to live, going through the motions as I waited for inspiration to strike. It’s a rut that many people live in, doing the same things over and over, a life of repetition that some enjoy. I have found that I am passable at being normal. As a writer, I have procrastinated more than written. I tried using my other experience to help others, and I I’m not sure that I have failed as much as they have – there is a wisdom in that to contemplate.

In doing all of this, I have shot tendrils of myself out into things I haven’t done before, or haven’t done well, or could do better. One of these things relates to one of my passions, music – but probably not the music you might enjoy, those who find themselves neatly in a category. I am at home listening to The Hu, Marillion, and Passenger, to name some. The top 40 is a curse of radio in the world of social media.

My former music teachers in will tell you that I was a dismal failure, that I did not apply myself, etc. My former art teachers would say the same.A few weeks ago, it struck me that my math teacher would have said the same, and I am not deficient in Math. My former Physics teacher actually kicked me out of class in high school only to find out later that I was studying Nuclear Propulsion in the Navy. Why did I listen to some and not others? Perhaps who I was at the time, and who I was at the time is not who I am now.

At Karaoke, with enough alcohol in me a few that I know and many that I fortunately don’t have heard my violent and bloody attempts to sing, and some were drunk enough to appreciate them. Perhaps I’m not that bad, but the point is that I’m not that good and I’m quite certain of it. Still, I have a love of music – it has been my opiate when things are bad, it has been my pedestal upon from which I dove into enjoying accomplishments that few could understand much less appreciate.

As someone who read poetry under the unwavering tutelage of Tom Reese at the old Beaux Arts in St. Petersburg, Florida, a way of connecting with my mother who also wrote and read her own poetry, I found I had some oratory ability and with his patience and sometimes complete lack of it (those who knew Tom Reese will know well what I mean), but the expressiveness of voice was something I appreciated more than I practiced. I’m sorry, Tom, and ‘Mad’ Anthony Wayne Waite, my bill collectors made me choose the pragmatic path. Plus, I am an introvert, after all. 

Thus, I found myself enjoying The Charismatic Voice channel on YouTube. A whole new world opened up for me. I began to understand how different singers could evoke different emotions and effect. It’s an amazing world. I shopped around for different ‘reaction’ sort of YouTube videos and ended up sticking with The Charismatic Voice, through subjective good and subjective bad. It’s actually a pretty interesting business model in that every video becomes it’s own ‘channel’ that attracts some more than others. Some hop. I finally did find one song being analyzed – one artist – that I was completely blech about, but as with writing, reading bad writing or styles one doesn’t agree with often gives us tools we don’t use the same way, or to different effect.

I found, as with most things like this that happen in life, that it made me revisit my own life soundtrack, a soundtrack of what I consider my personal whispers in a world that continuously shouts and screams. As we grow older, it becomes more and more difficult to do this – I can’t tell you how many times over the last decade that I have read new books on old topics and had to re-evaluate for days, how decisions need to be weighed differently, how I need to look at things differently, and now, how I need to listen to things differently.

This, I suppose, is what the elite call refinement.

Prompted Groot.

Lootcrate Exclusive Glowing Groot Pop Marvel FigureWhoever dredged up the music for the ‘Guardians of the Galaxy’ and ‘Deadpool’ movies is a genius.

I’ve pondered this for weeks as I trailed through the music on YouTube and where it lead me, even as I did other things – new hobbies, old habits. There’s a wash of nostalgia that I felt but couldn’t explain.

It bothers me when I can’t explain something. Little Groot dancing to the songs he did made me think back to the years where I rode around in the back seat of an array of cars, between States, between places, the journey almost always better than the destinations largely because of the music that oozed out of the impedance matched 8 track systems. To listen to the music is to want to feel the wind across my face and through my hair from the wound down window of the back seat of the Barracuda, or the station wagon, of the Power Wagon… and of the horrible radio in the ugly blackish Duster in Dayton, Ohio.

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Undisturbed from the normalcy of what society defines life as – that busy and unproductive suite of actions that people fumble through daily – I was able to reconnect with thoughts and emotions that had been locked away for decades, the soundtrack of innocence of my age through the ears of hard won knowledge and wisdom.

We forget too much.

I suppose as we grow older – we get caught up in what society demands of us in the unfortunate Faustian bargain we are born into – different for everyone, yet the cost never truly seems to give us the value that we were sold in our innocence.

Do this. Get that. Follow this path. Get to this destination. Stay on the path. Scorn those off the path. Work hard and everything will work out.

Bullshit successes, largely, empty of meaning when achieved all because in that bargain born into, we never get to negotiate our own bargains because we don’t truly know what we can get, we are told we can get whatever we want…. and largely, we don’t. So we settle, we lose our dreams, we lose who we are in trying to become who we are not.

And yet, we can remember the days with the window down, the wind in our hair and across our faces, and the comfort of music through a now antique music system even as we watch the world visually attached to flat screens instead of the shifting landscape, with ears plugged with headphones locking people away from the world around them, lost to the collective Faustian bargains of those who came before.

In odd moments, prompted by music from our childhood, we remember these things – and I am left wondering what the newer generations will remember of their childhood in the Faustian bargains that previous and our own generations sold them.

GrootWe are Groot – tendrils of ourselves creating the new society, making the handles of tools that can be weapons, making weapons that can be tools, not forging ahead as in the Industrial narrative hammered into my generation by the Faustian blacksmiths of before.

Organically, we reach through the generations with the things we trade, and we only see the hours of toil instead of the shifting agreement for the hours of toil. In youth, we do not understand the world, and in age few of us do beyond our own little perspective, increasingly fed by what others tell us to think through the flat screens.

Where are the open windows of the backseats of cars that blew our hair, with soundtracks written by lyricists who lead us to question, to play, to ponder?

We were Groot. I’m not sure we still are.

Finally, The Right Entertainer.

A memory has haunted me for years, coming back to me now and then.  I was a toddler, alone – I know this because the light blue kitchen was enormous for me, and it took great effort for me to climb up onto the counter. I simply had to get closer to this song as it played.

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It was this exact rendition of Scott Joplin’s “The Entertainer” playing on the radio – which I just found. It’s a joyful memory. I laid my head against that old mono-speaker radio, delighted at the sound, with no care in the world.

For years, I found various renditions that could have played on the radio during that period. It wasn’t any of them – you can tell if you listen carefully.

But this was it, I found it 46 years later thanks to that memory, YouTube, Wikipedia, and a lot of trying to figure out exactly where I was when it happened.

And now I know.

Finally.

The Lost B Sides Of Our Lives

VINYLVinyl. Some audiophiles still say that it’s the best way to listen to music as they don their rubber gloves, pull their records out of the cardboard holders (plastic removed to avoid warping of the vinyl), carefully placing the record on the turntable, adjusting the speed for a 45 (single) or a 78 (album) post WW II, and 33 RPM later on for albums.

Today, the MP3 reigns supreme – a compressed version of the music where the frequencies are kept only to that which the average human ear hears. Yet there was a time before this, a time before the 8-track tapes and later cassettes and the then ubiquitous Walkman cassette players, before compact discs (CDs) (Hat tip to Valdis Krebs on his correction through LinkedIn).

In the house I grew up in, a Sansui amplifier and tuner was the core of the sound system – 2 Technics turntables, a reel-to-reel system, and a dual Technics cassette deck with Dolby recording and playback ability. When alone, the wooden floors vibrated as only speakers made in the 1970s would make them. Every Friday, Patrick and I would look over the Billboard Top 100 to watch the trends, and I would go off and buy some 45s at the local record store.

I learned early on that what I liked wasn’t always popular. With music slower to come by than it is today, I’d end up flipping the record over to hear the other single that came with the record. A great example of this was the B side of ‘Shout’ by Tears for Fears: The Big Chair. A mixing dream, really.

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I’d end up exploring the work of artists other than what was popular. Sometimes it was crap, something that the recording company chose out of their discography that didn’t even make it onto an album, and sometimes not.

We don’t do that anymore. I’m not even sure that many people did it in the first place, daring to spend the time to see if they liked the song, but I do know that at least some hit songs came from B-sides. You can read about some here, and some others here where you can listen to themThink songs like, “You can’t always get what you want” (Rolling Stones) and “Revolution” (The Beatles).

In an odd sort of way, we were allowed to explore the music of artists through their detritus on the B-sides of albums – the stuff that publishers ‘threw away’, not wanting to give a free hit single away with another. And yet, some of their greatest mistakes are treasures – some popular, some not, the listener deciding what was good or not simply by flipping a record over and checking.

Fast forward to today.

The Internet brought us the ability to get music like never before. I’d like to think most of us legally buy music, I’m certain at least some of us download without paying some service or publishing company. Artists in some cases have bypassed the middlemen in this, allowing us to purchase directly from them through websites. Some even make their music available for free here and there.

But the services, just like yesteryear, are about maximizing profit. There are no more B-sides; we are bombarded with things that are algorithmically decided for us as we stream music. Just as on social networks our digital shadow – what we do online – is used to decide what we see, so it is with our music. Alternative – how can something be alternative when it becomes mainstream? – is even decided for us. We are less consumers now, maybe, than we were before the Internet in that there is no conversation (hat tip to the Cluetrain Manifesto), decisions about what we get are decided not even by other human beings but by statistical and heuristic analysis of our data. We are, in the eyes of algorithms, what we were, and not what we can be – never-mind what we should be.

Generations have passed having never flipped over a vinyl record, having never read something not decided for them…. we are become the algorithms of our algorithms, the ‘tools of our tools’ as Thoreau might write today.

Unless we find the B-sides of our lives.

A Song Is Born

He writes what he’s seen, what
He’s observed and
Puts it all in prose, distilled now
It ferments a little and
Picks up a heady, full flavour
Of guitar, piano and tambourine.
The song is born, aged
Until it sounds right,
Done only when satisfaction
Greets him with a shy handshake,
He expresses what he feels
Through the beat of his soul.

Written in 1997 about Mad Anthony Wayne Waite.

As I recall, I watched him writing the song above.